Budapest, crisis and hobby recap
May. 22nd, 2026 11:07 pm![[personal profile]](https://www.dreamwidth.org/img/silk/identity/user.png){kind=small}
solenneI'm back once again! Time passes so quickly, when you want it to slow down.
I've been meaning to write a post about the amazing time I had in Budapest, because I know the longer I put off posting the less effort and detail I'll put into it. This has been a pattern with my diary as well. There are so many things I've never written down, simply because I was waiting for the right mood to it.
Anyway, Budapest was great! It's one of those trips that makes you start thinking about whether you could actually live there, and you start reimagining your while life. It isn't my first trip without my parents, but I've never travelled with only one person, so I was honestly scared shitless before the trip. In the bus we talked about maybe staying in the hotel If the while experience got too overwhelming for us. Well joke's on us, cus we walked more than ever before in our lives, and saw more landmarks than most of the people that booked with the same agency. I'm honestly surprised how many people paid to go on excursions outside Budapest (they went to a mall lol, really exciting). The only thing we did with the tour group was to go sailing down the Danube in the evening, seeing all the beautiful architecture lit up and looking fairytale like on the river bank. Most other people seemed to be seeing all of this for the first time, while my friend and I played the game of trying to spot all the places we had visited during the day. I mean, If all those people had fun that's all that matters, but missing all the beauty of Budapest so you could go and buy branded clothes at half the price seems kind of depressing. Anyway, I am really proud of us for managing to see all the amazing landmarks, and for walking so much lol (I literally felt like my hip would fall off).
Other than that, it's been school school school, although, I didn't do much of studying. My motivation is so bad right now that I'm a bit scared for my exams. I know it's because they are my last ones. Everyone who I know and has a degree says that it's last exams that you really lose motivation for. My mother and father both failed their last exams on their first try. I know I don't need to hurry, my grades are great, I have no leftover exams. My mom usually tells me "If YOU are worrying, what are the rest of them supposed to do?" Lovely sentiment, but I am physically unable to calm down. I know this doesn't have to do only with exams and the last year of my degree. Every four years I fall into a bit of a crisis. That is usually the time before big changes in my life. First choosing my high school, then choosing my degree, now choosing what I will do after graduating. I know what I want to do, but noting is that easy, especially with the corrupt system of my country, where my degree might not mean anything once I have it. It mostly has to do with me deciding where I will live. I've mentioned not being crazy about the capital city, but enjoying it during this brief time that I get to spend here studying. Now I am starting to think about maybe staying here. I got so used to it. Most of my friends are here. One day I might not be in contact with my parents, or my small hometown might be too small for my life style. I've spent years saying I would be going back, but now I'm not sure. There are many more factors that I can't even talk about rn.
What a crazy post. First about some nice travel, and now about life crises. Anyway, I guess I wanna mention that I've finally been successfully brainwashed, and have started Buffy the vampire slayer. Wooo! Trying to finish Korra as well. Trying to finish anything from he list of series I never finished actually. Went and saw a great adaptation of the Twelfth Night in theatre. Tried many fruity cocktails, ate very good food. Saw my friends, we laughed, we cried.
Truly feeling the full range of human emotions!
Solenne
I've been meaning to write a post about the amazing time I had in Budapest, because I know the longer I put off posting the less effort and detail I'll put into it. This has been a pattern with my diary as well. There are so many things I've never written down, simply because I was waiting for the right mood to it.
Anyway, Budapest was great! It's one of those trips that makes you start thinking about whether you could actually live there, and you start reimagining your while life. It isn't my first trip without my parents, but I've never travelled with only one person, so I was honestly scared shitless before the trip. In the bus we talked about maybe staying in the hotel If the while experience got too overwhelming for us. Well joke's on us, cus we walked more than ever before in our lives, and saw more landmarks than most of the people that booked with the same agency. I'm honestly surprised how many people paid to go on excursions outside Budapest (they went to a mall lol, really exciting). The only thing we did with the tour group was to go sailing down the Danube in the evening, seeing all the beautiful architecture lit up and looking fairytale like on the river bank. Most other people seemed to be seeing all of this for the first time, while my friend and I played the game of trying to spot all the places we had visited during the day. I mean, If all those people had fun that's all that matters, but missing all the beauty of Budapest so you could go and buy branded clothes at half the price seems kind of depressing. Anyway, I am really proud of us for managing to see all the amazing landmarks, and for walking so much lol (I literally felt like my hip would fall off).
Other than that, it's been school school school, although, I didn't do much of studying. My motivation is so bad right now that I'm a bit scared for my exams. I know it's because they are my last ones. Everyone who I know and has a degree says that it's last exams that you really lose motivation for. My mother and father both failed their last exams on their first try. I know I don't need to hurry, my grades are great, I have no leftover exams. My mom usually tells me "If YOU are worrying, what are the rest of them supposed to do?" Lovely sentiment, but I am physically unable to calm down. I know this doesn't have to do only with exams and the last year of my degree. Every four years I fall into a bit of a crisis. That is usually the time before big changes in my life. First choosing my high school, then choosing my degree, now choosing what I will do after graduating. I know what I want to do, but noting is that easy, especially with the corrupt system of my country, where my degree might not mean anything once I have it. It mostly has to do with me deciding where I will live. I've mentioned not being crazy about the capital city, but enjoying it during this brief time that I get to spend here studying. Now I am starting to think about maybe staying here. I got so used to it. Most of my friends are here. One day I might not be in contact with my parents, or my small hometown might be too small for my life style. I've spent years saying I would be going back, but now I'm not sure. There are many more factors that I can't even talk about rn.
What a crazy post. First about some nice travel, and now about life crises. Anyway, I guess I wanna mention that I've finally been successfully brainwashed, and have started Buffy the vampire slayer. Wooo! Trying to finish Korra as well. Trying to finish anything from he list of series I never finished actually. Went and saw a great adaptation of the Twelfth Night in theatre. Tried many fruity cocktails, ate very good food. Saw my friends, we laughed, we cried.
Truly feeling the full range of human emotions!
Solenne
